Oprah

That's it. I can't stand it any more. On Monday, Oprah did a show about sexual molestation to children and young teenagers. It is disgusting what these people do to these children. They even have material that will guide a 'new' molester. They have training videos, tools, and other equipment that help them teach others what to do.

Disgusting!!

One man was convicted of drugging his daughters friends and then molesting them during the night. One night they were lucky. One of the girls friends actually had the sense about her and locked the door. The next morning she headed downstairs only to hear her friends father yell at her friend for locking the door.

One law enforcement officer said that they found videos of a man vaginally molesting an infant. They knew it was an infant because the stub of the umbilical cord was still on the baby, which means, the baby is maybe 2 weeks old.

Evil, evil, vile devils that will burn in everlasting hell!

This may shock some of you, but I feel that molestation, rape, and the like should receive the death penalty. I don't care if that seems rude, callous, or whatever you want to call it.. they deserve it. OR better yet, cut off their penis. Cut off their arms and their legs, and their penis and see how far that would get them...especially if there is, without a doubt, evidence. Like these three girls that were on the Oprah show.

I have now recommitted myself to not allowing sleep overs. It has been a very difficult choice for me. Very difficult and just about a month ago I slipped. My 8 year old daughter got to spend the night at her friends house for her birthday (the friends that is). Not any more, it just seems better to allow, say, late overs, where the child gets to stay late, but not sleep overs. I just can't.

You know, I am still wondering what these parents thought of this man. I don't know... it seems like there would be signs, or maybe I am looking for signs in everything. How could you not possibly know? I pray hard and fervently that Heavenly Father will bless me with the ability to listen to the Mommy instinct. After watching Jenny McCartney on Oprah talking about experiences that she has had with the Mommy instinct, I was reminded how very vital and important that is to our welfare and the welfare of our children.

You can quote stats, and tell me I shouldn't make a decision out of fear, but what if this isn't out of fear? What if this is actually out of study, prayer, and thought? Maybe that is how I justify my reaction to something like this.

Oh, this makes me ill...

Evil, evil, disgusting, ... I can't use the words I want to use it is so evil...

Dream

I just got on Facebook and looked up a good friend of mine, and in looking at all her photos of her children that are much older than they were 16 years ago, I got a little choked up. In High School I was very involved in theater. Theater was my life from what...12 to 19. I did plays, was involved in the community theater, actually worked there. I miss it. This friend, well her husband was my theater teacher so that also made me think more about school. I went to college and did some (very little) theater because my social life was much, much to important.

Looking back I wonder.... when I came home from school (I only went for two years, and met my husband) but when I moved back home before I got married I auditioned for, well, what I would deem the best frickin role ever... years ago Audrey Hepburn played a blind lady in Wait Until Dark. She was amazing. Ya, I got to play that part. I still get all happy and fuzzy inside when I think that I got that role (although, had Eve tried out, I am not so sure i would have gotten it ;). Anyway it was amazing. AMAZING!!! A chance of a life time.

I miss theater. As I am sitting here contimplating my life while listening to Les Miserable, I am all lost in memories. Theater was such a part of me. What happened? I don't know.....

Are there any regrets in your life?

All better

Okay, so things are better now. Deep breath in...and out... ahhhh.

So, I work for Sally Foster Fundraising company and I get to go to different schools and get the kids all riled up to raise money for their school. Well today I went to a school in the town that I live in and I was really impressed with what happened during the assembly.

The school had two children stand up front and announce the American flag and the state flag. Then a couple of students presented those flags. After the flags were presented they said the pledge of allegiance. So, I'm sitting there thinking alright, that's cool, now onto the assembly. Not so, after the pledge of allegiance they sang the Star Spangled Banner. How awesome is that.? Ya, that was cool to here a bunch of kids singing that from memory. These kids are, at the oldest 10, singing the Star Spangled Banner better than adults in church on July 4th. I was so impressed and almost got the chills.

If that wasn't enough as I was getting ready to leave they went through the song "God Bless America". It seemed, though, that they were just learning that song, but man, the Star Spangled Banner. How cool is that?

Now let me tell you why I think that is so cool. I fully believe in teaching children patriotism, history, symbolism. I just think, when these kids leave, well most of them, they will know the pledge, they will know the star spangled banner, and some of them will know how to present a flag.

While I was sitting there I remembered the one episode of a Jay Leno (and just so you know, I don't watch him alot), the part called Jay walking, where he goes out into the public and asks random people questions about the government and America. One of the questions was, can you sing the national anthem? I don't know how many people he interviewed, but most of them knew the first five words and then got completely lost. These are adults people, adults. So, you know, sitting there about ready to do an assembly, I was feeling pretty darn good that at least someone somewhere is learning something about America.

Debate

Uggh, why are women so damn complicated? Why do we think, rethink and then rethink again every conversation, smile or nod?

Why, for the love of God, do we insist in getting so involved in lives that are not our own? And pray tell, why do we insist on deciding what our friends husbands should and shouldn't be doing? And what is and what isn't fair in another's marriage?

And, can anyone, anyone at all tell me why, why.... do we get so offended so easily? Oh, sometimes I can not even tolerate my own womanhood...which bothers me because I love being a female, but I hate all the s...h...i.. that comes with it. We are complicated, frustrating, and irratating in all aspects.

Guess I have some issues to sort through.

I know, I bet you are wondering why? Why is she so anti-female? Well, I am just anti- bud -your- freaking- nose -in -my- business- attitude right now.

And, freak, leave my husband alone.

There...... digest that!

New Fall Season

Alright...who is ready for the new fall season of shows to start? OH! OH! OH! Pick me, pick me! That's right, I am so ready for fall tv to start. It looks like there are going to be a lot of new shows coming out, which is good, I guess, but I was hoping that some of last years would get another turn.

I really liked Journeyman, and Moonlight, but I am not sure if they are returning. I think I heard somewhere that Moonlight was canceled, but has anyone heard anything about Journeyman? I am also really like my favorites Heroes, Lost, Grey's Anatomy, Medium, Gordon Ramsay's Kitchen Nightmares...oh I think I am secretly, and oddly in love with Gordon Ramsay. He swears like... like a sailor, but man he is brilliant. I want him to come to my house and teach me how to cook.

Grey's is fab. I know, I know, it is predicatable and totally soap opera-ish, but I don't care one bit. I love my McDreamy, and my McSteamy. Yum!

Lost...well, what can I say more. I think the best thing about Lost is it will only be on for a total of six seasons. No dragging on forever and ever, only to be cancelled without any questions answered. Hum...should be interesting.

Okay, so here is what I want to watch so far, of course the above mentioned plus the Mentalist, Fringe, oh crap...what were the other ones?

What shows are you guys looking forward to watching this fall?

Case Lot

I just got back from a wonderful weekend of pampering and shopping. Friday I had to jet down south (45 min) away from home to work. I just got a job as the Fundraiser person for the Sally Faster company. I get to do kick offs at different Elementary Schools and get the kids all excited to raise some money for their school. It is fun and not a lot of work. Kids are the best to work with after all. So, anyway, I head down south and do a Kick Off on Friday, and meet my MIL (mother in law) and SIL (sister in law) shopping. We went to lunch, shopped some more, went to the house got ready for dinner and a massage and headed even farther south. It was heaven.
I stayed the night at MIL's and did some more shopping on Saturday. I went to Harmon's case lot sale and was very happy with what they had on sale. I got a lot of stuff for my food storage, even canned butter. Who thought they had canned butter? Cool.... best part of this whole weekend was that I didn't have a time frame. I didn't have kids with me. I didn't have to rush and go to five different stores, the mall and grocery shopping all before the kids get out from school, or before my husband gets sick of watching them.

Don't get me wrong, I absolutely adore my husband. I love my children, but there is just something about not having them with me that made me appreciate them so much more.

In fact, I came back in such a good mood *wink, wink* that DH said if you are going to be like this every time you come back I am going to let you leave more often. Yea, finally he got the picture and maybe so did I. I made an effort to make sure that I was not grumpy when I came back to a dirty house, dishes, laundry every where, that of course he doesn't do and why should he, I am the stay at home mom, and a mess of a front room. To my lovely surprise it was mostly clean. He had done the dishes, cleaned up the kitchen the best he could, and picked up some of the house, not to mention that for all of Friday and all of Saturday he had the kids. He took them to soccer practice and to the soccer game that I have been to so many times, and I was soooo happy to let him do it.

I had a great weekend shopping and pampering, and boy...my husband is a gem! I hope all of you have or get a husband like mine.

Sucker

This was written right after I watched this movie. I forgot to edit my post, and I don't think I will. If you don't understand it I apologize upfront. I guess this is the real me, mistakes and all.

I am a sucker. That’s it, hands down I love sappy , romantic movies. You know, through and through I am a sucker. I just watched Catch and Release, and wow, you know, nothing super special about it, it is a typical romance, but I loved it. I absolutely loved it. I love good movies. I think, I especially like romantic movies that make me feel all good and squishy inside. The funny thing is, I think I enjoy them more on my own, then with my husband. I think I would worry to much if he liked it, or didn’t like it? Is he bored? What do I do? So, hubby was out of town tonight and I pulled out this movie….

I love a good romance flick. Plus the guy, the one that Jennifer Garner falls for, is adorable, and strong and handsome and so, so sexy (and if I really cared to remember his name I would go downstairs and get it, but I am to lazy. He was the bad guy on Live Free Die Hard if that helps). Oh, and I especially like it when you can see his biceps bulging under his t-shirt, or you know, just the top of them showing so you have to imagine what he would look like with his shirt off. *Sigh* Gooosh …man I tell you, God made some beautiful creatures. Oh the man’s body, my, my, my... How beautiful and strong, and incredibly sexy. I want to run a finger over ever part of them (okay, keep your minds out of the gutter ). I mean, just to touch them, and caress them and be intoxicated by their essences.

You know, my hubby and I have often had conversations about what excites us. Men seem to be stimulated by their visual sense. Me, oh it is so the opposite. I am stimulated by their intelligence. A good intelligent conversation would send me over the roof. I also adore when my husband comes home from church and he loosens his tie just a bit, undoes his top button, and rolls up his sleeves and just plays it casual. Yum, yum to my tum, tum. I love when you catch men in those moments where they are just men. They aren’t posing, or doing something for you, or taking out the garbage, which don’t get me wrong is super nice, but not the essence of a man. I love when they are just completely engulfed in being a man. The only way to really capture that would be in a good picture. Wonderful, secret pictures that the photographer takes before you even know they are looking at you, kind of picture. I love catching my husband in those moments. It happens more in my head when I watch a chick flick like this over an actual occurrence, but still, I love those moments. His smile, the little wrinkles around his eyes (that he only has because he is 7 years older than me) the smell of his deodorant, the touch of his hand…

Or maybe, this movie has completely corrupted my perception of men, and I just want to see them as sensitive, strong, perfect men… or… maybe not.

But, hell, I am intoxicated by men. I love men. They are incredible, and (mostly) they are amazingly patient. I love the way they take care of us women. I heard once, that the reason why a man stays with a woman is because of the sexual pull the woman has on a man. His instinct to hunt is so strong that it would overpower his need to reproduce. The power a woman has sexually is so strong it makes them come back to us, and I am so glad that they do. I love my man, oh boy do I love my man.