My phone was gently tucked into my bra so that if it rang or vibrated I would be able to grab it in a seconds noticed. I got the call last night. She's in labor, it's kind of slow and she wasn't sure if she wanted the baby at her house or her mother in laws house (mother in law is the midwife I work with). Sit tight and we will call you back with more info.
Sit tight? How does one sit tight with a baby on the way? Husband and I were in the middle of rearranging our family room to fit the new TV we bought. I couldn't concentrate. I wanted to be there. After a few min I sent a text to Midwife 1 asking what had been decided, and apparently I am an impatient person. I'm sure you didn't know that, but I am. :D My husband told me to calm down and if there was any change she would let me know. You would have thought I was having the baby.
I had to keep myself busy for about an hour. I made myself eat because I figured it was going to be a long enough night that if I didn't eat now I wouldn't eat at all. Before I picked my son up for Karate I had the urge to get my bag ready, my water(drinking water), my purse and my jacket and took it with me. I was halfway to Karate when I got the official 'time to come' call. Dropped my son off and headed to my first birth.
It's an interesting place to be in here on the other side. I see and know everything she is going through and can't do a dang thing to make it better. Birth comes from the woman making the toughest decision of her life--push the baby out! She screamed, cursed and finally baby boy was born. I think I had more anxiety than the mother did, but it was beautiful and totally FREAKING awesome to see a woman go through all of that and survive, and that baby--I just wanted to gobble him right up.
It was amazing to watch the mother and daughter midwives work together. The choreography couldn't have been planned they just knew what to do, when to do it and how to do it without saying a word. They worked in such great harmony that I felt slightly out of place. I'm the dissonance to their harmony. The note that is almost there but hasn't quite made the transition from a flat to natural. I am honored to be apart of it and I reiterate my previous feelings of these midwives that came to the birth of my son. They are amazing women.
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It is weird to be on the other side. Someone once called me while they were in labor to ask for support via phone (they were states away) and during her pauses for her contractions, I listened to the sounds she was making. And it brought me back to my own labor with my daughter and when she got back on the phone, I felt like I had nothing to offer her. She had to do it herself and I just felt so helpless to really be there for her at all.
I'm glad everything went well and you got to be a part of that. How wonderful!
Tophat, I know the feeling. You know that they are in pain and in that place that women go to give birth and you can't go with them.
It was a beautiful experience.
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